This is already getting difficult. Hmmm... what 3 positive things can I come up with for today?
1. Well, for one I was just working on a budget for me and the bf. I haven't quite figured it out yet, but I started. This is something that I've known I needed to work on, but I've been avoiding it. Most of all I do not want to face the credit card debt. I don't want to know how much I owe, how much interest I'm paying, or how long it will take to pay them off. I also don't want to think about what I have to give up in order to pay down this debt. But now that I'm starting to face reality, I can do something about it.
2. I went to spin (flag) practice tonight. This shouldn't be a chore but for me it is. I hate practicing! It doesn't matter what it is, I hate it. I love performing at parades and other things, but I hate going to practice. I don't know how else you can learn something without practice, but if I could ever figure that out ... Anyway, It's a positive that I showed up, almost on time even.
3. I did some organizing at work - some info into a binder and sorted through a pile of papers. It seems so easy, I know, but it has taken me weeks or close to months to get myself to this point. I am far from being done, but just to have started is a great accomplishment. This is something I've been meaning to do for awhile. I think about it all the time but procrastinate like crazy. After these meetings each of the last 2 days when I couldn't figure out what I did with my paperwork, I finally decided today that I need to organize all of this stuff together before my meeting today. It was so nice to have everything together right there in a binder in front of me. This other pile of papers were things I am supposed to QC, but haven't had time for. I put them in order by date, and then cleared out the less important ones so that I can concentrate on the others. I haven't actually started the QC process yet but hopefully tomorrow ...
I guess this isn't the most positive of positive days but hey, I came up with my 3. I'm so tired I need to go to bed. I'll be trying to remind myself tomorrow to do some more positive things.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
it's like a game
I've been having a bit more a rough time today coming up with my 3 positive things, but I think I finally came up with a few:
1. I made it to court (as a CASA volunteer) for my newest case. Of course it was a continuance, but hey, I made it. I was able to chat with some of the people involved in the case so I got some first hand information, which is always good. Just making it there was a feat for me, as I have been slacking lately with my responsibilities as a GAL. But new starts and a clean slate always seem to get me back on track, so whatever it takes.
2. I handed in my paperwork for my recently closed case. This is an unbelievable accomplishment if you know anything about me. I have this issue with paper. That issue is that it is everywhere. There is absolutely no rhyme or reason to it because there is just so much of it. So when I take notes, they get put somewhere and then lost, and found, and lost again, and found, and so on. What's amazing is that for the most part all of my CASA papers are together in just a few spots. That made it a little easier and this morning I took ALL of my CASA paperwork that I could find, and then sorted through it when I got to court. I put all of the specific case papers together and then handed them in. And only a little over a month after the case closed. That to me is amazing. Don't get me wrong, those papers were a mess, and I hope that nobody else has to take on that case and weed through the disorganized craziness that I left, but they were turned in!! That is a huge weight off my shoulders. Makes me feel good.
3. I avoided drinking any soda today. These days that's a rare thing since I seem to get stressed or bored and decide I need something carbonated, sugared, and/or caffeinated. The most ridiculous part is that I can rarely finish it anymore because it just doesn't taste that good. Yet, I still drink it almost every day. Today I almost broke down, I walked over to the cooler thingy at the store at work, but they didn't have dr. pepper which is what I really wanted. I thought about getting pepsi, but just as I was walking in I heard someone say to another person - I've seen all that money you used to drop on soda - or something to that effect. Well, since I had just done a web teleconference about money management that comment (and the fact that there was no dp) was enough to make me walk away. I'm proud of myself for that. The more I avoid it, the less I will want it (and maybe it will help me lose some weight!).
I've realized already that this positive thinking thing is hard, but also kind of fun. If I can't think of 3 obvious things it almost becomes like a game where I'm trying to come up with something positive to do. After all, the list wouldn't be the same if it was any number other than 3. Or so my OCD brain says...
1. I made it to court (as a CASA volunteer) for my newest case. Of course it was a continuance, but hey, I made it. I was able to chat with some of the people involved in the case so I got some first hand information, which is always good. Just making it there was a feat for me, as I have been slacking lately with my responsibilities as a GAL. But new starts and a clean slate always seem to get me back on track, so whatever it takes.
2. I handed in my paperwork for my recently closed case. This is an unbelievable accomplishment if you know anything about me. I have this issue with paper. That issue is that it is everywhere. There is absolutely no rhyme or reason to it because there is just so much of it. So when I take notes, they get put somewhere and then lost, and found, and lost again, and found, and so on. What's amazing is that for the most part all of my CASA papers are together in just a few spots. That made it a little easier and this morning I took ALL of my CASA paperwork that I could find, and then sorted through it when I got to court. I put all of the specific case papers together and then handed them in. And only a little over a month after the case closed. That to me is amazing. Don't get me wrong, those papers were a mess, and I hope that nobody else has to take on that case and weed through the disorganized craziness that I left, but they were turned in!! That is a huge weight off my shoulders. Makes me feel good.
3. I avoided drinking any soda today. These days that's a rare thing since I seem to get stressed or bored and decide I need something carbonated, sugared, and/or caffeinated. The most ridiculous part is that I can rarely finish it anymore because it just doesn't taste that good. Yet, I still drink it almost every day. Today I almost broke down, I walked over to the cooler thingy at the store at work, but they didn't have dr. pepper which is what I really wanted. I thought about getting pepsi, but just as I was walking in I heard someone say to another person - I've seen all that money you used to drop on soda - or something to that effect. Well, since I had just done a web teleconference about money management that comment (and the fact that there was no dp) was enough to make me walk away. I'm proud of myself for that. The more I avoid it, the less I will want it (and maybe it will help me lose some weight!).
I've realized already that this positive thinking thing is hard, but also kind of fun. If I can't think of 3 obvious things it almost becomes like a game where I'm trying to come up with something positive to do. After all, the list wouldn't be the same if it was any number other than 3. Or so my OCD brain says...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
3 positive things
I think it's time for me to pay more attention to myself and how I can be a better self. So today I called into this teleconference about ADHD and self-esteem. Very interesting, especially because it's so nice to hear from other people who have the same issues as I do. I feel like they understand me, and that's not something I get often around here. I mean, they really get me, because as they talk about themselves or others with ADHD they are talking about me! I feel so relaxed after listening in. So now one of the things that I know I need to work on is positive thinking. Instead of focusing so much on the negative things, I need to realize that one negative doesn't make all negative. One of the ideas from this call was to write down 3 good things that happened today and why they went well. Not really a new concept but I like the idea that it helps me look at what I can control. So what are my 3 things that went well today ...
1: walkNationwide. I signed up, gave my $10 for my favorite non-profit, and walked 3 miles. It went well because I did something good for someone else, and I did something good for me. I could have just decided not to walk because the sky was threatening rain. It even started sprinkling before we started. I could have walked the easy 1 mile, or around the block, or any short distance I wanted to. But, I need the exercise, I had good company and I went ahead with the walk. It was a good feeling. Plus I wore the t-shirt at work, so everyone knew that I was doing this good thing. That always makes a person feel good.
2: I emptied the dishwasher, re-loaded and washed the next load. It may not seem like alot to the average person, but for me, it was a huge accomplishment. I live in a household full of adhd'ers so it is difficult to start/finish anything and it is extremely difficult to keep the house clean. Our sink and counters are always piled up with dirty dishes, and the dishwasher will sit for a week or more with clean dishes in it, until one of us can't take it anymore. Well today I took control and emptied the dishwasher and started the new load all in the same time period. Go me!
3: I wrote in my blog (see, right here, I'm writing in my blog). I actually started the computer, logged in and started typing. I otherwise have that avoidance issue where, I haven't done something in awhile so I just quit. I avoid and avoid until I decide to start over and then I feel guilty. Well, I may be starting over, but I started over today! I could have waited until tomorrow. But I didn't, so that is an accomplishment!
There it is, I came up with 3 positive things and why they went well. This does make me feel better. I think I will go eat some ice cream and then go to bed, smiling. ;o)
1: walkNationwide. I signed up, gave my $10 for my favorite non-profit, and walked 3 miles. It went well because I did something good for someone else, and I did something good for me. I could have just decided not to walk because the sky was threatening rain. It even started sprinkling before we started. I could have walked the easy 1 mile, or around the block, or any short distance I wanted to. But, I need the exercise, I had good company and I went ahead with the walk. It was a good feeling. Plus I wore the t-shirt at work, so everyone knew that I was doing this good thing. That always makes a person feel good.
2: I emptied the dishwasher, re-loaded and washed the next load. It may not seem like alot to the average person, but for me, it was a huge accomplishment. I live in a household full of adhd'ers so it is difficult to start/finish anything and it is extremely difficult to keep the house clean. Our sink and counters are always piled up with dirty dishes, and the dishwasher will sit for a week or more with clean dishes in it, until one of us can't take it anymore. Well today I took control and emptied the dishwasher and started the new load all in the same time period. Go me!
3: I wrote in my blog (see, right here, I'm writing in my blog). I actually started the computer, logged in and started typing. I otherwise have that avoidance issue where, I haven't done something in awhile so I just quit. I avoid and avoid until I decide to start over and then I feel guilty. Well, I may be starting over, but I started over today! I could have waited until tomorrow. But I didn't, so that is an accomplishment!
There it is, I came up with 3 positive things and why they went well. This does make me feel better. I think I will go eat some ice cream and then go to bed, smiling. ;o)
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