this is difficult already

This is already getting difficult. Hmmm... what 3 positive things can I come up with for today?

1. Well, for one I was just working on a budget for me and the bf. I haven't quite figured it out yet, but I started. This is something that I've known I needed to work on, but I've been avoiding it. Most of all I do not want to face the credit card debt. I don't want to know how much I owe, how much interest I'm paying, or how long it will take to pay them off. I also don't want to think about what I have to give up in order to pay down this debt. But now that I'm starting to face reality, I can do something about it.

2. I went to spin (flag) practice tonight. This shouldn't be a chore but for me it is. I hate practicing! It doesn't matter what it is, I hate it. I love performing at parades and other things, but I hate going to practice. I don't know how else you can learn something without practice, but if I could ever figure that out ... Anyway, It's a positive that I showed up, almost on time even.

3. I did some organizing at work - some info into a binder and sorted through a pile of papers. It seems so easy, I know, but it has taken me weeks or close to months to get myself to this point. I am far from being done, but just to have started is a great accomplishment. This is something I've been meaning to do for awhile. I think about it all the time but procrastinate like crazy. After these meetings each of the last 2 days when I couldn't figure out what I did with my paperwork, I finally decided today that I need to organize all of this stuff together before my meeting today. It was so nice to have everything together right there in a binder in front of me. This other pile of papers were things I am supposed to QC, but haven't had time for. I put them in order by date, and then cleared out the less important ones so that I can concentrate on the others. I haven't actually started the QC process yet but hopefully tomorrow ...

I guess this isn't the most positive of positive days but hey, I came up with my 3. I'm so tired I need to go to bed. I'll be trying to remind myself tomorrow to do some more positive things.